Punch it!

Becoming Catholic was a battle y’all. I can’t even begin to tell you how much, even during my conversion, I hated it. I mean yeah sure I loved it. But the sinner inside me who had hated God for so long squirmed. Every single time. I get a lot of slack for the type of Catholic I am. I’m not reverent enough. I cuss too much. I have so many disbeliefs I struggle with. It’s been my hardest battle. And even still after almost 6 years I still struggle. The closer I get to God the more the evil one attempts to F it all up for me. When we moved to Ohio we were staying in this little cabin on a hill. I say hill but to us Floridian it was a damn mountain! It was so hard to get our truck up especially after the snow. And after getting stuck in a ditch, we had to get pulled out of we began to park at the bottom of the mountain. We’d park and walk up up up to that rental cabin. The neighbor across the way would let us use her driveway to park in. When we were finally leaving and moving into our home it was imperative that I be able to pull the car up there to pack up. But my truck just couldn’t make it. That friendly neighbor offered to use her car. By the look of this car, I knew there was no way it would make it up that hill, but this neighbor assured me it would. Seeing my doubtful grimace, she gave me a brief lesson and it’s one I won’t soon forget. “You gotta get a running start, then you just gotta punch it up the hill, don’t be scared the car can handle it.” And that tiny car scooted up that hill like a turbo diesel 4x4. I was shocked. Much like my faith I doubt that God can do the things he promises. That his tiny presence in my life will make it up the hills I battle. But I just “punch it” fearlessly and somehow, I manage to stand on the top of that hill. That tiny amount of faith I have at times still propels me farther than the big truck sized sinner inside me. It’s a climb every day. But I just think about that kind neighbor who taught me an invaluable lesson on that snow covered driveway and I carry it around with me daily. So… “Get a running start, punch it and don’t be scared” because Gods got this.